The Holidays Are Approaching

For some strange reason, I love the cold and the snow and the holidays. Sometimes, the mere thought of seeing family & friends shopping, and talking together, or even looking and buying presents and wrapping presents together or alone, trimming the Christmas tree...I miss all of that. I do not have anyone to do anything for me for Christmas, my family is kinda not the typical jolly and fun-loving family, it is all busted up and no one gets along with no one, so I kind of feel comforted when I see people in the mall laughing together, shopping,and just spending time together, I do not have any friends here in LA. to even do that much with. Being alone kind of sucks, but I find a way to deal with it. People whom I thought were my friends turned out to suck and abandoned me when I wanted/needed them. Venting about my feelings really makes me feel more sad--but at least I am not holding onto the pain and keeping quiet. I am always happy to know when certain friends will be coming to town and want to see me; that always makes me feel good. I have 4 couples of friends whom I would buy something for and would do anything for and they are the Bybees', Hancock's, Collins, and the Spencer's. I still do love Christmas and the entire month of December because it was Christ birthday and it needs to be celebrated, not by gifts or material things-but just by love, laughter, prayer, and togetherness....in my opinion...Regardless of how I may be feeling at this time-it will never take away the love that I have for the season and how much I enjoy it ever year!