Losing A Friend Sucks!! It Hurts!! It is HELL!!

I am NO stranger to losing friends, trust me on that. I would say that I have a lot of acquaintances rather than friends..I just call everyone mah friend because I do not like introducing people like, "Hi, this is an acquaint that I know." Sounds too professional! I have lost a lot of people in my life that I know God did NOT place in my life, but people whom I WANTED in my life. I found myself at times, trying to buy friendship and sacrifice what I wanted to do what these other so-called friends wanted, but in the end, I was left with nothing. If there is anything that I have learned over the past few years of my life is that friendship, true friendship has to be earned, not given, and they have to PROVE how much of a friend that they really are because looks can be deceiving...if you really want to know if some one is ur true friend, test them-

People in the world today love to take advantage of a weak person or taking advantage of a person's kindness...this is a tough world and I had to learn all of these lessons the hard way. True, I had to get burned, but that was the only way that I was going to learn, by making the mistakes, but I am correcting that now and this year as I summarize on the top of my blog page in red. NO longer will I beg for people's love and friendship, they will have to prove it to me, I will not longer run and chase after people. I ask God to place people in my life that He wants in it and NOT whom I want in it.

I, tonight deleted some one out of my life that I really thought was a true friend, he proved to me in January that he was not the friend that I thought that he was. Every time I was on Facebook and I was ready to remove him as my friend and the question popped up that asked, "Are you sure you want to remove _____ (the person's name) as your friend?" I stared at that question and never could do it until tonight. Yes, it hurts..it hurt me really bad but I deleted him and I untagged him from all my photos and I just want him out of my life because I have not talked to him ever since January and that is just not how we were before..I will not share all of my business, but know that I am blogging this because I am upset, pissed off, hurting, and need to vent. I do not think, I KNOW that I made the correct decision, the other party may not think so and God may not even think so, but I will not second guess my decision....why do I always have to be the good person? Why do I have to be cursed with a kind heart and conscience? Why am I so good?

No more!! No more!! I just pray that God gives me the strength to get past this ordeal and move on because I have been affected by it & I am trying everyday to get stronger, but it is hard when you take someone to be your friend and then when you need them....they are not there for you...it hurts and if anyone says differently-there are lying....